wondering

have you wonder why we existed?

i am tired of the situation i am in.... very very helpless....

i tried to made the situation better.. but nothing seems to improve...
in fact, i think it became worse...

even some lau cai cannot got toilet, he at least go make the effort of buying prune juice for her..
but for me, i just ask him if he can buy some thoat meds for me... he ask if the med will make me mute, if will, then he will rush down and buy....

and when i already tell him the information for at least 3 times... he still needs to go confirm with that hua chi...maybe he is trying to prove to me that i am a worse worker compared to her... therefore, everything need to let her know, everything must go thru her..

how much more nonsense do i need to endure??

i really dun know how long i can still hold on, or how long i still can manage...